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Learning to Love the Hard Way

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Eventually, after the divorce, I married again. A second marriage for both of us. Finally, an adult. Two adults. I find connection, nourishment, and emotional safety that I could not have dreamt of before. We learned to love again.
Love

Growing into a Bigger Heart

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I witness my disappointment because I can see him slowly leaving me, and I also witness my love, for I have the honor of tending him as he slows down. I am left with a choice. I can resent my husband’s limitations, or I can be a compassionate witness and helper.

Please Forgive Me. Thank You.

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As time seems to quicken, and our experiences intensify, and as I’ve personally experienced more loss and death in my life, I find myself seeking more peace. As I let go of more of the external – outcomes and things – I find myself needing…
Seeing light after darkness

Showing Our Brokenness

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On the deck, there are a small group of sparrows eating the birdseed that has scattered everywhere from the feeder above.  It is a fairly peaceful day after a weeklong visit from relatives. The sun is shining.  The ocean is blue.  This moment…
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Overwhelm

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Maybe you could call it a creative block, but what it really feels like is that I'm caught between these different and enormous landscapes, like being in the middle of moving worlds and everything is changing and I don't know yet where I am…

We Are Big Beings

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Last Thursday I went to my Dr’s again.  I still haven’t kicked whatever is making me ill. While in the Dr’s office, a man was there getting vitamin C intravenously.  He had cancer.  I told him that I ‘wanted to kill’ whatever was…
Aurora depicting mystery

Inside and Out

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Some of the big shifts in my life occurred when I started to look at the difference between inside and out.  Examining this difference allows you to discriminate between what you think you want (ego perspective) and what your life wants of…

Family

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This past Saturday Mike and I were married.  Our wedding was beautiful and felt blessed.  We were surrounded by love and support.  We shared our inner feelings about each other in a visible ceremony of commitment.  A wedding is such a powerful…
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The Gift of Dialogue

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One of the memories that has been indelibly etched within me is a fight I had with my father. I had come home from college and found our old family cat Sissy with a huge abscess on her stomach.  She was clearly very sick and going down hill…