Tag Archive for: death

MamaMama

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I don’t want to cry. But grief is a wrap. It is a place. It is a time. And there is much to grieve now.
butterfly

The Pain of an Opening Heart

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It hurts for our hearts to open. Like when the blood has been cut off from a limb and begins to flow back in, it pricks and tingles, the intensity worsening as the oxygen-rich blood rushes in to feed the cells and nerves. The cells and nerves…
My Blessings for the New Year

My Sense of Home

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My much-loved husband nearly died three weeks ago. When I imagine my life without him, I realize that there is no place to go, nothing to do that could feel okay. I feel homeless, lost and adrift. What is home, but a tender heart we connect…
My mother's passing

My Mother’s Passing

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My mother died July 22nd after a yearlong battle fighting a rare and deadly cancer, mucosal melanoma. It was the day before my birthday and I wasn’t there. Perhaps she picked that day to spare me her death occurring on my birthday. We had…
Seeing light after darkness

Showing Our Brokenness

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On the deck, there are a small group of sparrows eating the birdseed that has scattered everywhere from the feeder above.  It is a fairly peaceful day after a weeklong visit from relatives. The sun is shining.  The ocean is blue.  This moment…
baby hank

Markers of Change

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At approximately 4 PM on July 28th, my cat Hank was put to sleep.  Over the next two days, I was at a wedding with two ceremonies.  The first was a ritualized Hindu wedding for the groom’s family and the second was the traditional American…